Dehradun, Uttarakhand.

13th June, 2020

Newness hath an evanescent beauty.

Heinrich Heine

Ever felt that, when you do things, you’re not supposed to do. Well, I’ll say been there done that way too many times. You know when you stop yourself from something potentially harmful, but end up doing it anyway, ’cause it’s just tempting; giving in to an escape from all the overwhelming affairs.

It’s hard to understand if the escape is really a getaway or just another addition to the profuse toil of the matinee. Someone like me would rather sail across the turbulent swells with an institutional mind than bear the changes, though good. Your habits rule over your well-being, and it’s just difficult to break out of the monotony.

There are times when everything is just so tough, that feeling of being helpless because all the paths seem difficult to cross and you’ve not yet gathered the grit for the journey. I would say I’m in the process of mustering up courage, only a bit maybe, but I’m still thankful for the inception. At times, it’s just selfish, I agree, to enjoy the company myself and be a hassle in return, but I’m trying; to improve, be better, be a little less complicated, a little gentler, each day, for you.

Voice the times you feel like saying,

I want you to interrupt my impenetrable thoughts, rummage through my soul and find unbroken pieces, cherish them with care as I’ve already faced the consequences of handing them out carelessly. Put a smile, once in a while, help me defend the bruises, I hide from you and I’ll uncover them cautiously, one at a time, might take a long time. Be patient, for all this and countless other impressions you might come across, and I’ll be fine even if you choose not to cause I’ll still continue to meliorate the standards in my life.



Kota, Rajasthan, India.

19th January, 2019.

Don’t talk to people who give stress, that is why my phone has no one calling me for the whole day. I like talking to people, I like being alone in my room. I like studying but I hate studying.

Life is having fun, making fun of me.

P.S.- The title is me convincing the 160cm me, that height doesn’t give heights.


Allen Career Institute, Kota, Rajasthan, India.

24th March, 2019.

Just another Sunday afternoon. This place is one of the most crowded places in the locality during weekdays, flooded with students going in and out of the building, seeing the road almost empty on a weekend is a strange sight I’m not used to.

P.S. The weather is extremely hot these days, I just don’t feel like going outside.


Haji Ali, Mumbai, Maharashtra, India.

9th February, 2018.

Not starting something new with the fear of loosing interest in what I do now. I know I have abilities, I still don’t know about. Changing your interest to your job is a luxury and not many are privileged to experience it.


Mahavir Nagar, Kota, Rajasthan, India.

9th March, 2019.

Never listen to your favourite songs during hard times. When you listen to them later on, all those memories come back. It’s too uncomfortable.

I have so many songs I like but as soon as they play, I feel like changing the song, cause it reminds me of those times around when I used to listen them.


Rajeev Gandhi Nagar, Kota, Rajasthan, India.

I was going to delete all this, but then I realised there’s a difference between obeying someone and being under control of someone. Call it being delusional or stupid, but please mind your own life, cause I’ll take care of mine. Hope you understand.


P.S. Not directed towards anyone, but directed towards everyone.

Old Kota Gate, Rajasthan, India.

7th January, 2019.

I am not good at maths but I have a lot of problems.


Aklank Public School, Kota, Rajasthan, India.

12th February, 2019

I still can’t get over the quotes you quote on the court to court me. Communication if difficult becomes precious, because forgetting easy things is human nature.


Kota, Rajasthan, India.

19th January, 2019.

Someone recently told me that I have good perspective of viewing and presenting things. Well I was really extremely grateful for the compliment but honestly I personally don’t think that my work is worthy of those appraisals. Trust me, I don’t have a slightest hint of humbleness in me, so I’m being honest right now. Honestly, I still don’t know what I did all my life and what I’ll do for the remaining, I’m not even sure what I’m doing right now. Literally I see the sun rise and set and there are days when it’s seems to happen in a matter of minutes. Anyway, my point is, though saying was in the moment, listening to those words, I felt honoured. I guess sometimes not knowing what to do and doing whatever is the answer to ” What will happen to me? ”


Kota, Rajasthan, India.

31.01.18 (I clicked it long time ago and had forgotten about it, just came across scrolling through old photos)

When you view the same things from a different perspective, small matters become important and huge problems seem insignificant. View it the way it’s favourable to you, life does become happier.