21st July, 2019.
You know life never fails to amaze me and the fascination I have for it is never enough to justify the amount of newness I get to experience every single day.
What I’m referring to is that how amazingly weird it is, that we adapt ourselves to new situations so easily, that things or people which we didn’t even know existed a few months ago, are so familiar that you are up at 2 am listening to their life stories and relating as if you’ve known each other for years.
I am surprised by the fact that how human life can exist in uncountable number of personalities. No two people are same and you can never classify folks under ‘’categories’’.
You show different aspects of your life to people differently, you try to show facets that are similar, excerpts that they relate with, it’s all different for everyone yet it’s all true and all you. As life goes by, narratives become longer, ideologies get examples to support them and belief in things becomes more and more firm, with all that you experience. I think it’s my nature that allows me to explore this diversity in humankind and learn each and every day from people around me.
I feel superior to some but also have my moments of inferiority once in a while, it’s all a part of observing and sort of building my database of human understanding and thought process. I am not a deep thinker but I’m definitely an overthinker and for me those two things are different. I try my best not to get attached to things, and not to have expectations because I’ve had my fair share of disappointment in life, but I still do so. People still become habits, I start having expectations again and start asserting my right on them… yet again, it’s stupid I know, but that’s how it is.
Not saying that I’ve faced any disappointment till now, but I will I know, not from all but definitely from some, and I am totally convinced that I’m not the only one, getting myself into this loop of ardent relationships again and again.
Your present is the new normal in the most unexpectedly wonderful ways and when you look back, the old is so forgotten that it seems not so normal pondering on how your behaviour, conduct and outlook has been influenced by the convention around you.
It may be desirable might as well be otherwise, but acceptable among the encompassing ocean of individuals in the new habitable world environing us, because now that’s the normal we know.