13th June, 2020
Newness hath an evanescent beauty.Heinrich Heine
Ever felt that, when you do things, you’re not supposed to do. Well, I’ll say been there done that way too many times. You know when you stop yourself from something potentially harmful, but end up doing it anyway, ’cause it’s just tempting; giving in to an escape from all the overwhelming affairs.
It’s hard to understand if the escape is really a getaway or just another addition to the profuse toil of the matinee. Someone like me would rather sail across the turbulent swells with an institutional mind than bear the changes, though good. Your habits rule over your well-being, and it’s just difficult to break out of the monotony.
There are times when everything is just so tough, that feeling of being helpless because all the paths seem difficult to cross and you’ve not yet gathered the grit for the journey. I would say I’m in the process of mustering up courage, only a bit maybe, but I’m still thankful for the inception. At times, it’s just selfish, I agree, to enjoy the company myself and be a hassle in return, but I’m trying; to improve, be better, be a little less complicated, a little gentler, each day, for you.
Voice the times you feel like saying,
I want you to interrupt my impenetrable thoughts, rummage through my soul and find unbroken pieces, cherish them with care as I’ve already faced the consequences of handing them out carelessly. Put a smile, once in a while, help me defend the bruises, I hide from you and I’ll uncover them cautiously, one at a time, might take a long time. Be patient, for all this and countless other impressions you might come across, and I’ll be fine even if you choose not to cause I’ll still continue to meliorate the standards in my life.